I've had a creative block for years now.  It crept up after doing too much in too quick of a time span resulting a need for some serious rest.  It's hard to be creative when you are depleted.  I've spent a lot of time ... and when I say "a lot", I do mean A LOT ... of time re-grouping.  Life slowed down significantly, allowing me to better connect with myself, God, and those who matter the most in my life.  I've really experienced that balance that seemed so elusive.  What a blessing that has been even though I was down on my butt for some time.

So it seems kinda like I have been in hiding, but in reality I have discovered new things that matter to me.  Good things -- not that the former wasn't good too, but I am much more in sync now with myself, my community,  and how I make a difference to those around me. 

It wasn't like I was a "taker" or anything before -- I have always been a big volunteer person, but I really have much more of a well to draw from now when I give.  Wow.  It fels so good to come out and just share that.  I'm thankful that I did what I needed to do to get to this point. 

I'm coming out again ... to play in the coaching arena in a bigger way (although I have never stopped coaching) and I am clearer than ever about what I believe, what is "right" for me and when to just say no.  Not a "sorta no" or a "I will get back to you" but just a flat-out "no" with absolutely nothing attached to it.   I feel strong.   I thought I was before but nothing like now ... and I do know that not every day is a strong day so I will better treasure them when I have them.

You are invited to my coming out party!  Thanks for sharing the experience.

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